Day Two: Traning my mind

Today I have been at war with my mind. I have thought about a certain thing most of the day. Even in my quiet time. Its going to  get harder down the road I know. I felt bad today (withdrawals?) my stomach has been crazy I can only imagine it is still my nerves causing this. But on top of that my allergies have already kicked in for the fall. My med seems to not work anymore. 

I thought that if I could just be in God's word when some thoughts came to my mind that they would go away, but I was wrong. The devil is trying his best to win. I cant let him! 

So tonight I was reading the thought came to me that maybe I don't sleep at night because I am holding on to something. And I realized even though I am no longer with my ex I feel as though people are mad at me for leaving (his family/ friends) because now he has nothing. I don't like the feeling that someone out there might be holding a grudge against me for some reason. If that is you and you are reading this please lets talk because I am truly sorry. 

So I am face with a lot of decisions to make about my life and future. I seek guidance from God because he is the only one that can light the way down the right path.